what doesn't kill you makes you stronger

the month of february has been awful. completely terrible. i think i know that i have been more stressed out in school this month than i have ever been. in my whole high school career. i think i've been sick more then i ever have in my life. i even lost my voice. (but secretly that was kinda cool. i've always wanted to really loose my voice) i never get sick! maybe it's because i've been so stressed...or it could be allergies. i backed my car into another car and now i will never drive a stick shift again...or at least not for a very very long time. my bumper is ruined. my best friend decided he would tell me "it's time to take a break." college stresses me out so bad that i almost force myself not to think about it. i'm going to miss my family so much when i leave. i don't know how i'm going to survive without them. i haven't been eating very well either. i've so much candy this month it's not even funny.

i'm so looking forward to march. true, i want to graduate and be done with high school. but i need to remember to live in the moment and take advantage of those moments because they won't ever come again. it's crazy how fast time is flying. in 6 months my life is going to be so much different. i forget sometimes how truly blessed i am to have the family i do and the friends i have. i'm slowly learning take a step back when i'm overwhelmed & look at the big picture. even my hard month of february has made me grow. i have to smile and laugh and remind myself that everything happens for a reason.